So why has fear of my chronic-sadness lasted almost all of my life?
Now at age 73 … I can see so well with 20/20 hindsight ...

I think it came from never being introduced ...
...to the Frequency of LovingKindness growing up as a kid
..not even that there was such a thing as LovingKindness.

And then I thought …
... “What caused this Sadness in the first place?”

I already knew the answer before I even asked this question ...
… “A fear of being all alone and not being connected to others
… a feeling of falling with no end.”

At times it felt impossible ...
... that I could ever pull myself out of from such a cosmic void.

But that was then. … and this is now.