(Before you begin reading this note my Brother, please know I am writing it not for you ... but for me.)

Dear Brother, for as long as I remember, I always wanted to be brothers with you ... as friends and pals ... even though you were 15 years older and I had no idea what being brothers meant except what I learned in movies and TV as a kid. It all seemed a wonderful possibility.

One thing I'm pretty certain about, we both had the same birth mother ... just not sure about our birth father(s) however ... the same or different.

And yes, at times, we did seem to connect (or unconnect) to each other as "brothers" ... but for "whatever" the reason ... we never connected with an emotional understanding and acceptance of the other ... and for sure we never connected as spiritual beings with understanding and acceptance of each other's visions.

Then there are your secrets ... the ones that continued to act as a wall between us ... over and over again. I often imagined what many of those little secrets were and still are tucked away in the corners of your mind.

But I've stopped using your secrets as excuses as to why we never connected and have moved on to acceptance and finally leaving "my denial" behind once and for all. Not an easy personal desire to let go of ... but necessary.

(this note to be continued ... or not?)